Thoughts for these few days....

Before that, I shall blog about the dream I had this morning first...

It was a simple dream.. I dreamt that I was playing this board game with someone (can't remember who). There are 3 different units in this game, the two players playing, and the banker. The objective is to buy some property and win your opponent, and we will take turns to be the banker. So when I am playing, the other person will be the banker and vice versa. I vaguely remember that we need to try and convince each other to borrow money from the bank and then make each other in debts or something.. but oh well, I can't really remember the details, and ta-da, I woke up from my sleep.

That's all. Blogging it out for fun, in case I encounter such a game in the future, here's a record.

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I have quite a few thoughts these few days, but unfortunately, as of now, I can only remember one.. so I think I shall just blog about it here~

It's actually kind of like a clarification here... because I have heard some stuff about me recently. So... here goes:

To my horror, I realised that sometimes, people really think too much. And I'm really surprised how people can make associations and draw connections regarding certain things. Though I didn't hear the exact things, but just by hearing stuff like "旧情复燃” and “last minute KS" confirmed that my guess was correct. So for those who think they know what I am talking about, here's my message to you guys... "Sorry, you got it all wrong."

I don't really know who started this whole thing, and I can only suspect that it's the person herself. But whatever the case, unfortunately, you are not the reason for any of my emo posts within the past few months. Really. Maybe I hope you would be the reason, because at least it shows that I still have a target out there. But sadly, no.

And since I touched on this topic, I think I need to bring up a question my friend asked me not too long ago, when we were talking about relationship stuff. I told them I have gotten over my past, and one of them asked me, "Then 你在emo什么？"

I honestly don't know how to answer that question in a way that most people can understand. I tried answering another friend a similar question, by saying "Life in general". Seriously. I am not trying to smoke or anything. That's the real reason. Not because of any particular person, but rather, because of life as a whole. Maybe it's just my life as a whole, I'm not too sure about that.

Maybe there will be a day when I can give a more understandable answer, but till then, I can only rely on this blog post, to clarify that it's not because of any one person. So... yeah, whichever girl that I have encountered in the past, 我早就放下了~ 很抱歉，目前的我，选择"自爱"与"自私"，而不是"痴情"。或许有一天，我会遇到一个我愿意为她痴情的人，但目前没有这样的一个人。